un-Productive

jumped into the twitter bandwagon not long ago, hence the lack of updates in this dying blog.
the emerging of twitter has cause ppl to update their blog less often. what says you?
i would rather just update my current status on twitter to typing a long grandma stories here but sometimes ppl like to read grandma's stories and i like to tell grandma's stories. i think i like both twitter and blog but sometimes, im just too lazy to tell grandma's stories and i would rather keep it short and sweet. so, i guess twitter it is!

i havent been doing anything productive lately.
i sleep. i eat. i go out. i stay at home and play games. i still spend my parent's money. i meet new friends. i hang out with friends. i walk aimlessly around the city. i drink. i visit marley. i this and i that.
that's very "productive".
i think i need something new in life instead of just repeating the same old shit everyday. but i cant do much shit here because im on holiday visa and i don't have a job which means, im still depending on my parents. boohhh!!! i feel guilty because i'm not doing anything and yet they have to support me financially for doing nothing. i love them and i tried to hate myself. at least i tried but i just can't do it cox im not a suicidal. smiles.


i love this big guy. he has been there for me mentally and physically through spring and summer because i moved to melbourne in spring and now it's summer. well, he was there for me before i moved here but it's different because it's a ldr. ldr is a tough shit but i guess we're used to being apart. he was there to hear my rants and whines. he was there to make me laugh and entertain me in every possible ways. he was there to 'layan' all my childish and stupid behavior. im gonna miss this big guy when i go back on dec. it was a tough decision but sometimes we gotta throw away all the selfishness in us and start to think for other people like parents who work damn hard to support children's unproductive/ bummin life.

i'm keeping in touch so i won't lose the touch.
i'm still trying to be productive. well, at least i wrote something today but my writing skill is still a bleh bleh. maybe i should read more.

cheers.

Stagnant

the time that i'd been anticipating since 3 months ago, came and left so quick, like a gust of wind. it felt like a family reunion. nothing changed in the family except that i'd learned to love them even more and my relationship with them grew closer.mum is still a hygiene freak, dad still drink everynight and joke around, bro is still a vainpot and camwhore, and sis is still a baby in the family. i miss waking up early to become a driver/tour guide and photographer for them.
i finally graduated. thank you for supporting me. i love both of them heaps.

one of the first stop on our way to up north. our eyes are partially close because of the strong wind

my 1st and 3rd aunties and my cousin came to visit me as well

like my bro said, it was our first picture of everyone in shades.

glad that all my effort to plan the trip up north paid off. everything went on smoothly and my family is happy with the trip. it was a beautiful journey. it felt like i just started planning for their trip yesterday and today they're already back in malaysia. the time flies extremely fast when they're around. the feelings of having them around stays even though they went back a week ago.i miss them heaps already.

and as for me now, i'm still doin the same thing that i was doing before my family was here. life is stagnant for now.

sometimes we heard noise that we weren't suppose to hear and that noise that we're not supposed to hear might change our perspective towards a particular thing or maybe person.

cheers!

I am. I am not.

i was alone. i wasn't alone.
i wasn't alone. i was alone.

it was like a roller coaster ride.

at one point, i felt like i'm living alone and i was quite a sad child.

the next point, i'm back to norm because mei mei and jack came over for mini slumber party and i was a happy child again for a few days.

on random days, the presence of my housemate and my lil friend reminded me that i'm not alone. ah, it's a tough process but i'm adapting to this loneliness slowly.


my lil friend that constantly jump and tell me that "hello!!! i'm here. let me play with you so you won't be lonely" in her own puppy language whenever i put her back into her box.

julz thought i was naive to think that i will not go through this loneliness anymore after my melbourne/ nz trip. i had a few mini lecture/advice from him and now i have to force myself to grow outa my shell and learn to survive this loneliness.

team marley's population is growing happily. mei mei is the chill out ones that lie down on the carpet and stare at the ceiling in deep thought. jack is the happy ones that laugh his brain out for 1 freaking hour. the next hour, he became paranoid because he thought he was separated from his body. he spent 1 hour searching for himself. this is a scene for us to laugh in 10 years time.

"how are u, girl?what have you been doing?"
"i'm good, di. nothing much. same old stuff."
"same old stuff? that means you're not productive and not learning because you told me you're doing the same thing every week"
"i'll be productive next week onwards because you're coming next week"
*daddy was speechless for 5 seconds*

my bro is coming here with the sims 3. a big YAY. i can't wait to install and live with the sims 3 like how julz live with his WOW.

cheers.

Marley!

the weather has been quite emo lately.
you looked at the sky and smiled in the heart. what a sunny day. what a good day to go out!
the next thing you know, the sky turned emo. you looked at the sky again and cursed in your heart. damn, i forget to bring damn umbrella.

i'm staying away from marley for a week. i've been visiting his place too often that i don't feel like a visitor anymore. sorta forced loomie to hide marley's key so i won't even think of it. bryan was here for 2 weeks and he's lovin marley's companionship too. 

future DOT

graduation is next month and i don't even know what's my next plan? some of my friends had already bought ticket back to malaysia and i'm still confused about the visa thingy. visa, please don't disappoint me. please, don't crash my heart. if the visa thingy goes smoothly, then i believe my plan will pop out automatically

i can't wait for the arrival of my family. i miss them so much. i'd been away from home for more than half a year and it's my first time being away from them for such a long duration. i've been planning for the family trip on september and hopefully everything goes according to plan. it's been a while since the family travel together.

don't lose touch with me. i miss the friends back home.

cheers!

For Every Little Thing.

i sorta forget the fact that i have an abandoned blog waiting for me to 'un' abandoned it.

i'm back in perth. it's been 2 months since i'm away. spend 3 weeks travelling in new zealand and the rest of the time bumming and walking around in melbourne.

i spent 2 nights in perth without a freaking heater. i had no time to get a heater cox i was busy working. i hate getting outa the shower. i hate to hop on bed. i hate to walk into the toilet. damn, it's just freaking cold. waiting for the arrival of loomie. button and i missed you.

ah, new zealand was awesome. the view took my breath away. and the most memorable event was bungy jumping. I DID IT! YAY! it was a lifetime experience for me. a lot of stories to tell but i cant put them into words. piccas on fb will tell some stories.

melbourne was awesome too. thanks sayang

new chapter in the book of love/hate relationship. never thought we could live that way. i heart you even more now.

i miss all the crazy times we had together.

i hate goodbye. i hate being apart.

i want a dog. soon, please come soon!

my family will be here on september for my graduation. i can't wait to see them. i miss my mum, dad, bro and lil sis.

it's time to start that budget 2009 plan thingy for some holiday escapism and some happy shopping moment

cheers!